I know you think I may be kidding, but, in fact, I'm not. I've been avoiding my blog for the last 3 or 4 weeks. I should update it and I kinda wanted to...at least put some more photos on but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Mostly, I just found myself having a little pity party and being in a very complaining type mood. Now, I do believe in being honest about how you're feeling but I sounded whiny, even to myself. It was just a little bit of everything....the weather (seriously, it rained or snowed big time every time that I had an appointment!)...the ENTIRE family got the flu (we were all completely down and out one day - all five of us - the kids even had temperatures ranging from 101.5 to 103.4)...and just being at the end of my pregnancy (after being sick, the heat sensitivity and itchiness that I know all too well kicked in). I even had a friend who, when I told her the kind of mood I was in, said...go ahead, complain. So I did and it really sounded just a little pathetic, even as I was saying it. However, things have turned now. Last Sunday I was sitting in church - I always marvel how I get the weirdest things out of church on Sunday. Not usually what the main points in the sermon are but some other little tangent that I can't even remember how it relates to the service, usually. Anyway, I was sitting there when it just struck me...suck it up...this isn't about you. You are having yourself a wonderful little pity party like life is all about you and your convenience. It isn't...it's not about you at all. God gives you what He does for a purpose so move on. And I did. Not sure what the purpose of the tormenting pregnancy symptoms are but I guess I'll try to learn to take them on more graciously (and hope the baby's not late). Paul had it much worse than I did and he still had joy (see Philippians) so I need to take that example and focus on the big picture and get my head off this earth for a bit.
So, there you go. The reason I've been avoiding you and the solution to all my problems :) Now I won't post any photos today...I'm off to watch a movie...but I'll try to soon.
Until next time...
That is 100% okay girlie. Love you guys!!
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